7 weeks +

At last week's consultation, I had a bone-marrow biopsy. Somehow, this last one was the most excruciating of them all. This will indicate if my body is now cancer free. We will get the results on Wednesday, at my next appointment.

I feel optimistic, but can't help having a feeling of dread. It's like Peter trying to have enough faith to walk on the water. I strongly believe that God has not abandoned me, but I've seen how horrible things happen to really good people. I'm not more worthy than anyone else, hence the fear.

My blood counts are now all normal. I love that word "normal". I don't want interesting. Normal will do just fine, thank-you!

Still struggling with a throat infection and digestion problems.

To those who are upset that I have not answered e-mails or sms's, please forgive me. Most days I feel so tired, that just making a sarmie or a cup of coffee, leaves me breathless. I've read everything, and update here or on facebook. I feel tired physically and emotionally. It's like I used up all my "positiveness" in hospital and am now just going from day to day.

Last night, Jose shaved off the last prickly hairs on my almost bald head. And, then I shaved his head. So now there are 2 very bald and shiny heads in our home. You can call us Kojak, and Kojaky!

To everyone that has continued to pray for and offer support to family and I, thank-you.